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always and forever

term's closing and all that seemed to have transpired in the last 9 weeks were untruths and a whole lot of silence. yet, nothing has changed the plain simple fact that you still are my breath of fresh air and that when i was drowning, you saved me. i found the notebook mandy gave me on my 21st and i re-read the quotes from grey's she jotted down on the first page:

knowing is better than wondering, waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beats the hell out of never trying

we're friends, real friends. and that means no matter how long it takes, when you finally do decide to look back, i'll still be here

i want things to go back to the way they were before. i was happy before you came along. i knew my place and my heart had no place for love, or heartache for that matter. so yes, i do wish sometimes you never happened and this pain would all go away and you never having to deal with all the melodrama. even if it means taking away the best 4 months of my life here in uni thus far because right now, nothing in the world seems to beat the pain of not being able to let go, and the fear of a haunting from the past.

britney week on x factor. she's helluva a singer, but she got voted out. the good ones seem to always leave. just like you did. why am i not surprised. feel the intensity of her passion and her emotions because that's how i've felt everyday the last 9 weeks. i need fixing.

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

“always and forever”