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grey sky morning

and summer's supposed to hold our hands and sail us through this period of time of forgetting and getting grip. i'm yours by jason mraz came on the radio again last night and my mind blanked out because the last memory i had of this song was replaying it over and over again on my laptop in the library study room with annie and mie and i kept humming and daydreaming and smiling because i was that happy and that contented. it was that same day that i ventured from costies to your place after dinner, bearing a chocolate cake in hand because you were stressing out over your exams. it was the next day that things came to an end.

but i'm moving on, even if it means throwing myself into work as i did last year and allowing it to consume my very last breath. and it may mean late nights in the office and taking on extra work and duties to keep me away from thoughts about you, but that should sufficiently curb excessive thoughts and fantasies - dreams that you've told me to abandon for the better of us.

and then this song came on the radio today and i just smiled. a song from a long time ago for now.

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

i'd rather find in time, together, that you were always right

“grey sky morning”