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i'm yours

then there was no more happiness and contentment and eagerness. there's no more waking up happily to a text message, a call or to the prospect of seeing you. there's no more falling asleep in your arms and watching you, no more feeling of the utterly blissful sense of contentment that that was all i needed. and then there's no more eager waiting to hear from you or to see you because there's just no reason now.

it's back to life as it was before.

you were my only friend.

and i was all prepared to do all that i could. i wanted to give up all that i wanted just to be with you, even if it meant we're heading into a future so positively uncertain. yet all i wanted was now. all i wanted was to live in the present with you and we'll take what comes our way a step at a time.

i trusted. i loved.

and at the end of the day, it was all about me and what i entailed. i was the impossibility and the uncertainty that you couldn't deal with. i'm going back to what i used to be now, because i need to know my place. that i cannot expect to deserve anything more because of this situation that makes me, me.

saying i'm yours doesn't mean anything now i guess. and that it's not going to change anything.

i need to know my place and not to expect to deserve anything more but this temporality.

maybe this is your happy news. that you're finally rid of this.

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours

“i'm yours”